yay!

Last night he looked at me and called me his "Pretty, pretty princess" and I was reminded of how much I love him. I hope this works out and you keep your promises.

I'm going to the Bahamas on Friday at 4am, I am so happy to get away from here even if it's only a few days and even if I am swamped with homework on break. The only thing wrong is I'm going to miss black Friday, the best/worst day to shop. But, please believe I will be spending a lot of $$ when I get back!!

Can't wait to go on this slide eeee!
Bahamas, I've missed you.

I loved you most.

You broke my heart, I hate you.
Fuck you.

tears, tears go away.

Pretty things

I wnt evrythng.

I want to buy everything, all the pretty pretty things.

I made this small collection of things I'm going to buy in the next 24 hours. Why write a paper, due tomorrow when you can buy things from out of the country?
When I see myself in the future, I see myself having a closet to drool over. Elegant, with a couch much like this one placed right in the middle and a chandelier right in the center.. dripping with clothes, shoes and pretty things.

you're pretty

I am insane.

gimme, gimme.

disappearing

There's a lot of bullshit going on right now in this city and you can all choke on a cock before you even begin to think of yourself as superior to anyone. I found that I'm very disappointed with who surrounds me. You're all pussies. Except for my babygirl, who said this to me: "i know im only one person, but you will never be alone. it will never be you against the world because ive always had your back and i always will. i will never leave you or turn on you; i love you...fuck the rest/fuck the world"

It is fall and the days have been so pretty with all the leaves, but right now the weather is so disgusting. I can hear the wind and rain outside... I wish it would go away!

I have decided to remain sober for as long as I can, I'm hoping this will clear my mind completely. Sometimes i get too crazy when I drink too much (lolz) I'm going to disappear for a while, and only focus on what needs to be focused on. This is a very wise decision on my part. Isolation from everyone except who matters is the answer to the last little thing I need to reach my goal.

I'll be back.

gaga ooh lala

Fucking love it.

I'm a princess

and I got blood on my knuckles from your face.

The hatred inside of me slowly builds to an excessive and destructive point.

I need to stop overanalyzing details and small things, for the love of fucking god.

Yesterday I got my nails done and had dinner with my Mom, she started crying when I left to go back home and study. I only live about 20 minutes from her and Dad, when I asked her why she was crying she said because I was leaving. I hope my Dad realizes what is going on and stops this bullshit, I can't stand to see my strong Mother cry anymore.

I'm going to my friend's birthday party tonight, though I honestly shouldn't be fucking going anywhere.. I have so much homework and studying that needs to be done before Tuesday.

I wake up every morning staring at my snowboard, I put it right in the corner of my room, in front of my bed, next to the t.v. It's so pretty I just wanna ride it already and forget about all of these things clouding up my mind.

Listen:

I wish I knew someone like Ari...
I miss True Blood :(

It's chilly!

@

I went to see Lady Gagagaga's concert, she is so creepy.

My cat died last Thursday, his name was L.J. I've had him since I was 9 years old and sometimes I cry late at night because I miss him. He lived a good life, I know he died happy.

I just had my 19th birthday, accidently drank almost an entire bottle of Grey Goose, but my family and friends made my day amazing.

Things to work on:

1. Bettering my posture.

2. Walking better in my pumps.

You know who you are: Sometimes I just want to check up on how your life is doing, because I honestly do miss you. I've seen a few bitter things said toward my direction and I want you to know that you are highly mistaken to think I need to "get better" or that you somehow are a victim. I have realized some problems I had with MYSELF and changed them, I am back to who I used to be. You leaving my life had nothing at all to do with my rehabilitation, so please stop lying and acting like you were a good friend towards the end. I recently found out that when the end was coming and I was devastated, you couldn't have cared less about me or the situation our strong friendship was put in. I don't hope the best for you, though I do still love you and I miss you and what we had. I haven't been this happy and content in a really long time, and sometimes it seems like the only thing missing in my life is you. You say I'm weak, you say it's my fault. I disagree, I am stronger than I've ever been and the reason we're not what we were is your fault. You make me sick to think I did anything wrong to you. If I saw you I'd spit in your face.

these streets will make you feel brand new

Right now I am so exited about the near future and what it brings me.
I will walk ahead of you, I will be everything I've ever wanted. Can't fucking wait.

Also, exited for fall, kind of?

layin' in a coffin

So, this Fall semester has started up so I am swamped, leaving no time to casually blog.

I am upset that my face is rejecting my microdermal and True Blood just ended,

BUT my birthday is in 4 days, on the 20th ^_-

Lately, it really does seem like the men in my life have been disappointing me, but other than that.. things seem to be coming together so perfectly. Also, I have been addicted to the new Yeah Yeah Yeahs cd, It's Blitz!, nude lips, pale skin, Lady Gaga, and garlic bagels with cream cheese.

I'm good, I'm gone

Oh, Betsey.

bonez

Money, Success, Fame, Glamour

old Heatherette.

Jeffrey Campbell Burberry knockoffs.

Betsey Wetsey

<3

<3

Lately..

      Recently, I lost my very best friend, she decided not to be in my life anymore. It's hard and I miss her. 

Yesterday I woke up and had a self-realization. Which led 

to me finally surfacing some of my destructive problems.

   1. I do not rely on myself, but on materialistic things and other people, all exterior things.

   2. I need to stop fighting people.

   3. I need to get my priorities straight.

   4. I need to be more confident.

   5. I need to stop being naive and stupid just because of my non-dependency on myself.

   6. I need to be independent. 

Me, myself and I, Keeping my chin up.

 

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^ blackberry cover <3