Fuckin' swamped with end of the semester papers and finals, but procrastinating the best I can. I'm writing a paper on Stoicism, Stoic wisdom and how it is advantageous in every day life, how it could be applied to any life. Basically, the Stoic way of life is very healthy lifestyle - When something bad happens, rise above it and do not let it affect you negatively, control things you can control and do not worry or dwell over things you cannot control. Basically projecting independence, clear minds and no negativity. Though these views are vital to a healthy lifestyle, it seems very black and white, with no grey in between. Life comes with emotions, instead of removing all emotion completely, just learn to control your emotions. A life without a emotion would be a dull life indeed.
I'm laying in my bed with my incense burning and thinking of how I can make my life better, I really want to as for some reason I have been sort of unhappy lately. I have nothing to complain about but for some reason I feel as though something is missing. There is a lot weighing down on my mind, that might have a lot to do with it. I really do need to clear my mind. I don't know exactly what is making me feel unhappy with life and myself at this current moment but all I can do is try to better it. There is something I need to do that I am sort of dreading, in fear that I will later regret it or that it might be the wrong decision. Something just isn't right.
"People who depend on others too much are victim to circumstance."
All I know is I miss my babies, I'm ready for Christmas with my family, I'm ready for the semester to be OVER and I want it to snow!