yay!

Last night he looked at me and called me his "Pretty, pretty princess" and I was reminded of how much I love him. I hope this works out and you keep your promises.

I'm going to the Bahamas on Friday at 4am, I am so happy to get away from here even if it's only a few days and even if I am swamped with homework on break. The only thing wrong is I'm going to miss black Friday, the best/worst day to shop. But, please believe I will be spending a lot of $$ when I get back!!

Can't wait to go on this slide eeee!
Bahamas, I've missed you.

I loved you most.

You broke my heart, I hate you.
Fuck you.

tears, tears go away.

Pretty things

I wnt evrythng.

I want to buy everything, all the pretty pretty things.

I made this small collection of things I'm going to buy in the next 24 hours. Why write a paper, due tomorrow when you can buy things from out of the country?
When I see myself in the future, I see myself having a closet to drool over. Elegant, with a couch much like this one placed right in the middle and a chandelier right in the center.. dripping with clothes, shoes and pretty things.

you're pretty

I am insane.

gimme, gimme.

disappearing

There's a lot of bullshit going on right now in this city and you can all choke on a cock before you even begin to think of yourself as superior to anyone. I found that I'm very disappointed with who surrounds me. You're all pussies. Except for my babygirl, who said this to me: "i know im only one person, but you will never be alone. it will never be you against the world because ive always had your back and i always will. i will never leave you or turn on you; i love you...fuck the rest/fuck the world"

It is fall and the days have been so pretty with all the leaves, but right now the weather is so disgusting. I can hear the wind and rain outside... I wish it would go away!

I have decided to remain sober for as long as I can, I'm hoping this will clear my mind completely. Sometimes i get too crazy when I drink too much (lolz) I'm going to disappear for a while, and only focus on what needs to be focused on. This is a very wise decision on my part. Isolation from everyone except who matters is the answer to the last little thing I need to reach my goal.

I'll be back.

gaga ooh lala

Fucking love it.

I'm a princess

and I got blood on my knuckles from your face.

The hatred inside of me slowly builds to an excessive and destructive point.

I need to stop overanalyzing details and small things, for the love of fucking god.

Yesterday I got my nails done and had dinner with my Mom, she started crying when I left to go back home and study. I only live about 20 minutes from her and Dad, when I asked her why she was crying she said because I was leaving. I hope my Dad realizes what is going on and stops this bullshit, I can't stand to see my strong Mother cry anymore.

I'm going to my friend's birthday party tonight, though I honestly shouldn't be fucking going anywhere.. I have so much homework and studying that needs to be done before Tuesday.

I wake up every morning staring at my snowboard, I put it right in the corner of my room, in front of my bed, next to the t.v. It's so pretty I just wanna ride it already and forget about all of these things clouding up my mind.

Listen:

I wish I knew someone like Ari...
I miss True Blood :(